Jan 23, 2018 - What went well today?

Another new day

1. Got seat in both the metro and bus during the morning rides and was able to read few pages from Origin.
2. Went for a leisurely walk post lunch with my girl from work and it definitely felt relaxing.
3. My boy built something with his blocks and he was super happy about it. I felt happy too.
4. Tried making a podcast kinda recording today and it was hilarious. I was laughing at myself at how I was talking. Far fetched dream... but was fun trying it.

Jan 22, 2018 - What went well today?

A new week begins

1. They say it helps find answers to one's problems... I would rather like it if there weren't any questions. Found 15 mins to myself in the morning for a little introspection, a.k.a meditation. Practicing everyday might help. I am positive that I can spare 15 days every morning to find myself. 
2. Was able to get son ready for school without any yelling and screaming for him to wake up. 
3. Evening, I was all set to shop my heart out since I was feeling low... but missed the bus stop and couldn't go where I wanted to. Funny enough, I felt happy for not spending 1000s just for the heck of it.
4. Kids... my kids.... they just brighten my day. I know all moms feel this... more so to me because of the trauma I am going through since Aug 2017. They remind me there is still joy and love left in the world and I get my share of abundant affection from where I require and not to hover over one thing for eternity.

Jan 21, 2018 - What went well today?

Sunday

1. Deployment went without a hitch.. done by 9 am.
2. MIL made my favorite roasted eggplant tamarid curry and was yum.
3. Craved for some snack and got to make one of favorite Ragi pakoda.
4. Completed watching a movie in 5hrs over 2 days... thanks to my kids.
5. Coming home to watch the kids rush to me and shower me with hugs and kisses, is what makes to worth going home every day. Kids grow up really fast and I wish to cherish all their innocent love and affection while it lasts. Love them to the moon and back.

Jan 20, 2018 - What went well today?

Saturday... PTM day

1. I assumed my kids' dad wouldn't make it to the PTM but he did. Thats a good thing for the son boy. He was super excited to have the entire family got to his school.
2. And ain't I a proud mamma... His teacher had only the nicest things to say about him.. the smartest in the class, the only one who knows to read all my himself, creative, and the list went on. So proud of you my boy :)
3. His school annual day is coming up and he plays the main role of a Dentist in a play. Can't wait to see him perform on stage.

Jan 19, 2018 - What went well today?

Friday... weekend is almost here.

1. Early morning... he returned home safe after his pilgrimage to Shridi.. not that he cares if I am concerned :D 
2. Got Shri Sai SatCharitra from him after being blessed by my Sai himself. I hope and believe good things will come for me and the kids. 
3. Did not wear the knee caps to work today... knee isn't that painful. The discomfort is reducing. Hope it wears off eventually. This has taught me to pay attention to my body, the only temple I've to live it and not take it for granted. 
4. Spoke to an old friend after days and felt extremely relaxed, accepted, supported and comforted. Thanks, my friend.
5. Went to the parlor and got my tired feet pampered... after ages I hardly remember when was the last time.

Jan 18, 2018 - What went well today?

1. Things at work went well... the releases and deployments and the verification.
2. Thursday it is... I wanted to have an one to one with Sai. Something kept hindering the plan.. I was angry with him for all the reasons he knows too well about. I avoided going to my usual temple... I did not want to meet him and get emotional. I purposely went with another colleague so I would not be taking my usual commute route. But like a magnet I was forced to go to the temple close to my home to which I had been years ago. Had a monologue with him and he kept looking into my eyes as if to say... shut up, I know what I am doing. OK.. that is me assuming he said that because I don't understand anything these days. I don't know to read signs from the divine, I don't hear voices guiding me or consoling me, etc. Whatever, I felt good none the less.
3. Kids... how I love them. The way they run to me and hug when they see me every evening... just priceless. That innocent affection and love... worth going back home every single day. They keep me alive. 

Jan 17, 2018 - What went well today?

Now, today was a great day...

1. Ethnic day at office following Pongal and I am all set to be happy today. Took courage to wear a sleeveless blouse for the first ever time, the one I bought exactly a year ago. One mental block overcome today even it took a year. Paired it with a (supposedly) Kadhi soft cotton saree that I bought last July but felt it would never suit me. But guess what? I totally rocked it. Many complimented.. friend took beautiful pics and without missing a beat, uploaded as the profile pic in all my social networking sites.
2. The kids' dad messaged that he had good, peaceful dharshans of my Sai at Shirdi. Happy for him.
3. He declared today that I will always be one of his best friends... and that would be our relationship for eternity. what should I be feelings? I was unaffected and completely at ease. A huge step for me. Proud of myself.